Time keeps ticking away

So, I completed my 6th week of my 20 week academy. I am just astonished at how quickly time is flying by. It seriously feels like just the other day we were all meeting each other for the first time and figuring out who we liked, and who we are content not having to work with from other agencies. Overall, it has been a blast. But the odd thing about that statement is the fact that these past weeks have truly been 99% classwork - being stuck in a class room learning about the same topic for at least 4 hours at one time. Starting this week, we'll be getting into our skills - such as firearms, arrest control and driving tactics. I can't imagine how fast it will zoom by then.

The other area that makes me realise how fast life has passed was that earlier today I added 2300+ songs from a few cd's of Alisha's from her old computer. I am listening to songs that take me back to middle school and high school. Classics from youth group like Audio Adrenaline, Jars of Clay, Five Iron Frenzy, and more.

It is just crazy to think I am married, living life away from home, have a real job - career, figuring out what these letters I get in the mail with the clear plastic windows in the envelopes eluding me to something I have to pay. Life is full speed ahead and I am enjoying each moment. Sure there are hick-ups, and moments I wish I could undo, but that doesn't cloud from that fact that life is great.

However, sometimes I feel like I am not as far along mentally as my life would otherwise dictate. I am entering in one of few careers where we are entrusted by the government to actually take people's freedoms away. What a huge responsibility and task. I look around and it seems like more people have their act together more than I. Is that reality or is it more likely they are better at hiding it than me? I would prefer the latter as to make me feel more content with my sub par feelings, but am afraid of the former. I guess, only more time will tell.